Chapter 3

He truly wished to summon Lin Qingyu back; once she returned, he would find a way to kill her

After all these years, although Su Yian is intelligent, he has forgotten many things from that year. Only that figure is an image that Su Yian can never forget

He usually takes care of his grandmother, who has fallen seriously ill. His aunt, who lives abroad, hurried back to take over the guardianship from his elderly grandmother. His aunt helped him handle his parents' affairs and, seeing his intelligence, arranged for him to transfer schools and skip a grade. His aunt is a busy person, often traveling back and forth for him between domestic and international matters

Su Yian shifted his "gaze" to Lin Qingyu's face, only to see a hint of mockery in her expression as she looked at the sky after a moment of emptiness. "So it turns out, just by changing my gender, my life could be so much luckier. Thinking about it, it really does seem unfair..."

Lin Qingyu fell silent, and after a long while, she finally broke into a smile and said, "Much more comfortable"

He met Lin Qingyu when she was in the fifth grade of elementary school, as he transferred from another school, skipping from the third grade to Lin Qingyu's class

Su Yian was left speechless

She leaned on two crutches, limping on one leg, charging towards him as if ready to wreak havoc, one crutch clearing a path through the group of boys: "You are going too far!"

I have experienced a breakup

After all, facing someone who comes at you and buries their face in your stomach, probably no one would have a good temper

Now, compared to the excitement and exhilaration she felt when she first ran here during the day, Lin Qingyu seemed as if she wanted to hang herself in the tree hollow, remaining silent for a long time

... then I can live happily together with my idol!

Su Yian felt that the drifting fallen leaves around him were the perfect reflection of his state of mind

Lin Qingyu looked at the sky for a while, then raised her palm and kept turning it over to examine it.

That was the first time Su Yian saw Lin Qingyu, and it was also the first time Lin Qingyu saw him

He also believes this; he considers himself a discarded child

Lin Qingyu was also small and could not articulate the grand principles that adults often speak of. She simply felt that it was too much for so many people to bully just one person, so she shouted: "If you want to fight, come on! Fight me!"

During that time, the whole family was going through a difficult period. Later, after his grandmother passed away, his aunt simply took him abroad.

died in an avalanche during the journey

If he could speak, Su Yian thought, he would probably curse.

Which ancient person said this! Su Yian is truly so irritable that she wants to call her Chinese language and literature teacher! To ask him to give her a score of zero! To retake the course next semester!

One day, the boys in the class pointed at him and laughed, calling him a little orphan without parents. They bullied him, saying that a child without parents would have no one to help him

And now, that little hero with a limp, who used to help others, is now preoccupied with how to win over his idol, even resorting to means of snatching someone else's beloved to achieve his goal

I have liked my idol for almost five years, and I still remember every phone number he has changed. However, I do not dare to make even a single call to confess my feelings to him

Her silence rendered the small grove in early winter eerily quiet

The simultaneous departure of his parents turned young Su Yian into a gloomy and taciturn child who was not particularly likable. Moreover, being more than a year younger than most of his classmates made him stand out awkwardly in the class. Children tend to bully those who are different from themselves.

It was only later that Su Yian learned that Lin Qingyu started school a full month later than the other children. This was because during the summer vacation, she had a fight with her younger brother, causing him to cry. Her mother got angry, and fearing punishment, Lin Qingyu jumped down from the second floor of their home, resulting in a broken leg

However, it was in such a state of disappointment with the world and despair regarding her own life that Lin Qingyu appeared

After a day of watching the clouds and feeling the wind, Su Yian, who was nearly falling asleep out of boredom, was once again roused to attention.

He met Lin Qingyu during a particularly bleak phase of his life

He knew that Lin Qingyu had taken a year off during her junior year, but he was unclear about the reasons for her leave of absence. There were many rumors among the students at school regarding that year she was away, yet Lin Qingyu had never mentioned a word about it herself

Lin Qingyu let out a deep sigh, "In the end, the ancients were right; there is always a little rascal named Cheng Yaojin in everyone's life."

The disappearance of books and pens is such a commonplace occurrence, yet he remains so silent that even the teacher does not wish to inform him. His silence exacerbates the children's mischief, with shoving on the playground and mocking during recess following in quick succession

She finished writing a convoluted and winding novel, and sat down contentedly at its roots, while Su Yian could only respond with a chuckle.

In fact, Lin Qingyu had also planned to confess her feelings to Xie Chengxuan around the time she was in her third year of university. She had prepared everything, including napkins to wipe away her tears in case of rejection. However, she unexpectedly had to take a leave of absence from school at that time. The long-prepared "I like you" never found the opportunity to be spoken.

Such a shameless person, Su Yian, has never encountered anyone else like this

By the time she returned from her leave of absence, Xie Chengxuan was already in his fourth year, beginning to prepare for graduation and job hunting, while she was still in her third year with the next cohort of juniors. After Xie Chengxuan graduated, he left the school, and when she started her fourth year, the campus basketball court had already seen a new group of players, with no trace of the former idol.

She did not resemble a girl at all, yet from that moment on, no matter how many places Su Yian traveled to or how many people he saw, he would never find a girl more beautiful than that silhouette

Time is such a thing; when it is said that someone will be taken away, that person will inevitably be taken away, leaving one so powerless that they cannot even utter a word of retention

The more Su Yian thought about it, the more he felt that something must have been wrong with his mind at that time, as he actually accompanied Lin Qingyu to drink that one meal

Lin Qingyu found the situation increasingly absurd; the story in her mind had already progressed to the point where she was contemplating how to comfort the male god after he had come out as bisexual

Lin Qingyu's commotion caused an uproar in the class, and the teacher also arrived, resulting in the matter being left unresolved

However, he thought to himself, in such circumstances, she still has the mood to talk about love, haha, that is indeed happiness... He has been standing here stiffly for an entire day, enduring the cold wind chilling his bare body, and then taking away the withered leaves that had fallen from the branches, leaving him with a subtle sense of awkwardness as he watched his own balding head.

Overall, it is truly wonderful to be able to become a boy now. Being in my third year, I can still strive for my goals. It doesn't matter if my idol has someone he likes; after all, I still have two years to live in the same house with him. Anything is better than not being able to see him at all. Lin Qingyu counted on her fingers, "I can still infuriate that little b*tch Li Sihe, and I don't have a troublesome younger brother like that. My mother still cares about me so much..."

Su Yian : ... ...

After Lin Qingyu left, the small forest appeared particularly desolate. Su Yian could only gaze at the unchanging scenery around him, and for a moment, he wished he had the ability to speak, so he could call Lin Qingyu back

Alright! Lin Qingyu stood up, patted her face, and said, "Having expressed my emotions, I will go home tonight and make a plan! I want to design a beautiful life for myself!"

She looked up at the sky, peering through the sparse leaves towards the equally sparse stars in the sky. "How wonderful it is to have a place where I can express all the little evils and fantasies in my heart."

"Well, why not just go and steal my idol's beloved!" Lin Qingyu's eyes lit up as she finally pulled her head out of the tree hole. "I have a pretty handsome body, and my smile is quite charming. After all these years, I am not without experience with women. Which man understands women's psychology better than I do? From now on, whoever my idol likes, I will go and steal them away. In the end, he will have no choice but to be with me!"

Su Yi'an was momentarily taken aback, thinking to himself, oh, how delightful and commendable

After that, Lin Qingyu began attending school, and she declared that she would "protect" Su Yian, which caused the children who used to bully others in the class to restrain themselves significantly

In fact, in Su Yian's distant memory, Lin Qingyu was not such a girl when she was young. At least, that is not how he perceived her.

Upon hearing these words, Lin Qingyu fell into an inexplicable silence for a moment

Lin Qingyu spoke expressionlessly: "Now fate has allowed me to return to my junior year, to live in the same dormitory as him. I initially thought this was destiny, a rare opportunity bestowed by heaven. It is time for a forbidden love that is close at hand, one that is both heart-wrenching and intense. I can finally showcase my skills in bending the rules perfectly. I can already see a forbidden love beckoning to me!"

Su Yian once read a book that stated that throughout history, the most severe punishment for humanity, aside from death, is to impose solitude. Therefore, in ancient times, there were punishments such as exile and imprisonment. Among these, imprisonment—this method of isolating individuals from one another as a form of punishment—has continued into modern times

She struck a comical pose in the deserted grove, gave herself a boost, and then skipped away cheerfully

Beheading and punishing others, solitude punishes the heart

Do you call your wicked thoughts and delusions "small"? Su Yi'an really wanted to question her seriously

That was his first time skipping a grade, because previously, although Su Yian's parents knew that he was somewhat smarter than his peers, they did not intend to let him skip grades in order to provide him with a more complete childhood. However, at that time, he skipped a grade for a simple reason: his parents, who were travelers, had passed away.

She stood in front of him, like the Superman on the screen, like the hero in the television, imposing and full of righteous spirit

Without waiting for the next day, Lin Qingyu went to the small grove that very night, found the gnarled tree, and then stood on the thick roots, burying her head into the tree hollow

Su Yian was unaware of what she was thinking at that moment. His understanding of Lin Qingyu was limited to the year they spent together during their childhood and the period when he taught her classes in her junior year until her senior year.

She only has one of his graduation photos, which she has been looking at until yesterday